When it’s the end I’ll stay strong. Not going to cry cause what really can that do? There’s no time with everything on my list.
First thing on my list is to wake up at 5 to the smell of greasy bacon popping on the pan filling the whole house with its sweet smell. Take a step in to the kitchen see my mom’s face light up with a smile as i give her a hug and sit down. She gives me a kiss on the forehead as the whole family sits at the table with their big breakfasts even grandpas at the table in his wheel chair. Sunny side up, 2 sausages, 2 pieces of bacon, pancakes and biscuits, with fresh orange juice.Best thing about 24 hours of life is you don't have to worry about calories :).Talk to my family, hug and kiss them goodbye. Mom and I, go to an Armenian church that smells like rice and holy water we held each other’s hands as we step up to confess our sins. Pray to the lord and earn our own faith back. We write our biggest regrets and sins on paper fold it in half and give it to one another we both will not read the other persons. I decide to be buried with it barring her regrets. The same she will do for me and in heaven we will read each others paper.
(6am now)
Third thing is spend time with my brother and friends and family: cousins, aunt and uncle's, grandparents. Take a road trip to New York. Go shopping in Manhattan not for me of course but getting gifts for my family and friends with the money I got for selling all my belongings and spend 2 hours checking out the city lights and touring the city and clubs (jk to young lol.) There was a flower sells man I stop to smell roses one last time. 8 hours in New York with my brother and all my friends the ones I can't leave behind is Shana, jenny, Justin, and maybe Chris lol party my last party with those who’s friends and family. With Chinese rice, chicken taco from taco bell recess ice-cream on a cone with spackles and some fried chicken. And tell my brother even though we fight I will always love and respect him. And i want him to go to college and not the army. Have a good respect young lady of a wife. Someone with a thumb up from mom.
(12 o’clock)
Then catch the next plane to Florida just me and my papa. I'm on a boat near Miami driving faster and more dangerously with my hand in the air and on the tip of boat really not afraid of falling. I want to be dangerous to know and for everything to be anything but ordinary. me and dad chilling on the boat we got tired of water skiing dad hands me a coke. I see something in the water it has finned’s like an airplane. Two dolphins head pop out from under speak in sequel. Without thinking I jump off boat in the cold salt water as soon as I hit the water it came to me that I knew nothing about dolphins. I don’t know what to be looking for and that the water look pretty deep well it was hard to tell considering the fact that I couldn't see the bottom. (I well be waring a lifeguard. Dad tells me everything’s ok, one of the dolphins come up to me and kiss me on my cheek. Then drags me in to the sea i hold on and dad get in with the dolphins and they tolk him away too. Swimming with dolphins talking about the past and how I used to be so little with no worries. when it’s time to go home dad turns to me and said "I remember when you were young, me and mommy took you two to a pumpkin patch you were only 4 it was the first time you ever seen a pumpkin" he laughed, I was trying to figure out want was so funny about that. Then he said "right when you got off the wagon and looked around you ran in to my arm and tears fell off you cheek". “I asked you what was wrong and you said 'daddy someone took out that pumpkins eyes' he smiled "you pointed at the sample pumpkin." I smiled too. " Then i told you that the pumpkin didn't need eyes all he needed was a big brave smile and the fire inside him to keep his brave." He point to me. "Now look who has that big brave smile i guess the fire burning" We talked each to sleep. After keeping the passengers awake having to hush us. We kicked their chairs after all they had their whole life to sleep.
.(10 o’clock)
Final thing LAST thing on list spend my last two talking to my grandpa on the front porch. About the war he went though, the thing he have to d0o to create a life from himself, my mom, grandma and what she was like. Talk about his mom, his past. Ask him what he would do different then ask him what’s the secret of life. Watch the sun set. Watch my life fade away into the light at the holy gates where grandma stood.
